Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Woke af

I feel like its a hard 
but necessary thing to say.

My heaven
is not with you,
I want to go to heaven
With you.


Sunday, February 26, 2017

I hope

I hope you hold me
Like I am new

I hope you see me
Sharing the same view

I hope you keep telling me
All those things 
You will never miss

I hope you share with me
Many more
Countless bliss

I hope you think of this
As once and only

I hope you love me such
As if you will lose me.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Talk to me

Its hard to talk to someone

You fear of losing
And want to keep

Like it was easier when
I knew you would leave

And now its different
Because you should

I feel like its easier to talk to the wall
The phone
The demon

And it gets harder and harder
For me to tell you

I am a mess
I cant do this

Thursday, February 16, 2017


I feel like
We tell each other
Things we dont mean than 
Those we do.

I feel like
We have to fight each other 
More than
Fight for one another

And I feel like
We know the problem
But dont know how 
To back pedal
And start over
And connect again

This love
We promise
Is merely held
By a string

If we cut
We lose each other
If we hold
We bleed trying

We bleed trying.

Monday, February 6, 2017


Repeat this until you remember.

I will not beg.
I will not ask.
I will not reach out.
And fly anymore.

I will not beg.
I will not ask.
I will not reach out.
And fly anymore.

Hang me now
While I am still compliant
The worst yet to come.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

I dont know how to ask for things
Without looking stupid. 

Its like I know all the things I need
But I dont know how to get them
And so I end up making a mistake
And losing them. 

I dont even know why I should ask
When I feel it should have been mine. 
But its not.
And this is how it is.
And so I ask. 

Stuck in this perpetual cycle again.