Of Vera Wang, Qus and Meaning

It all started, with a very promising evening with Qus.

My mom- the one I love and admire so much- has been giving me this idea a few days ago. And though I know many would be jealous and wished they had a mother like mine... to be honest it can be a little stressful haha.

"Just take a look at Vera Wang's website...just take a look. No harm done." she smiled over the phone.

My mom likes to joke about stuff like this. Cool huh?

Call it being an egoist, but I have asked her quite bluntly before, "What if, I just don't want to get married, like ever?" It wasn't a promise. It was just an IF.

She went silent a few seconds. "As long as you live your life as a modest lady...it would be, kinda boring, but it would be Ok."

I laughed at her reply. My mother, the forever hopeful. Wondered where I got my day dreaming persona huh?

So to cut things short, out of being decent, I asked Qus to come over to my house and take a look at the website with me. I was not taking a peek alone! Qus was the type of person, whom I could take about anything with. I could ask advise about professional matters, about wordly matters....than I could suddenly rush into my favorite movie that I am dying to see, or just talk about random girly topics- like wedding gowns.

"I seriously don't know what I am doing here." I admitted sheepishly. Qus, the expert, would swiftly click next next, and comment every piece of clothware To take the imagination rush away from your heads- there are a lot of choices and designs. Haha. We took a good hour just browsing.

And it hit me, that well, I liked girly and sissy stuff. I was very happy at seeing people in love. And though an hours worth of browsing through the internet didn't change any of my personal opinions about matrimony. I still had a lot of fun with my favorite people.

What I liked about spending my time with close friends. Was that I didn't have to be ashamed to talk about stupid stuff. And that they would never degrade it as stupid talk. Talking about wedding gowns was like talking about traveling around the world- it was very informative. Unlike my initial perception. I mean, how very discriminant of me to think wedding-talk was degrading. And with Qus, I appreciate the moment that I can talk about anything with her. Smart stuff or not-so-smart stuff haha.

I also had that night spent with Izzatni. And we talked all night long, she helping me do my homework. So typical of her to be my personal tutor haha. She taught me in just half an hour what my lecturer had to do in a week. The smarty pants.

I had also watched about the 'Quest for Meaning' from Tariq Ramadhan's video clip compilation. And it was very heartwarming, inspiring, and, I think in the moment I can't explained how that feels. To hear someone say your greatest confusion and fears- out loud.

Quite a very beneficial evening don't you think? Haha

As I slept that night, on the hard floor (no reason able to discussed) a few things went through my mind.

1. I am a very boring person, I can't seem to find interest in Vera Wang. Honest.
2. I can think of so many other names who should be looking for wedding gowns right now. Haha.
3. This post is so random. I get over dramatic over stupid things. I don't have to prove I am smart.

4. My heart will always appreciate peace. I find peace in meaning.