I have this character in my head, and so far she is the one that has stuck the most with me. Longer than most of the characters I've drafted. Mysterious, I myself don't even know who she is, completely. There are times I think I know her the best. There are also moments I can't stand her, and some moments I feel so sad for her.
I see her as a sole character-she stands on her own in a story. That walks alone in the midst of old training grounds and battle fields. She stays away from people because of what she "hears" in her head. In my head, she is a souller...able to listen to the deep desire of people's souls (not mind read--- she does not read brains).
In her past, her parents had "used" her abilities for evil, and forced her to tell everything about everyone. Feeling used, one day she refused and was severely abused by her own parents. Threatened, her ability somewhat ables her to turn her parents into their soul forms... then they are swept away and disperse into the horizon.
Utterly terrified by what she has done, she locks herself in her room, where her memories of being abused and guilt consume her. After nearly days of no human contact and food, Zayne (another character) has rescued her from her self pity and offer her solace in a training academy.
In the beginning, she accepts only because she does not know of what else to do. Only Zayne knows. She does not tell people about herself, and keeps quiet most of the time. The academy is filled with other characters and as she listens to other people's desires, she keeps a tight vow that she will never tell a soul what she has heard.
But because she has a hard time keeping secrets, she removes herself from the crowd of people in the academy. And ends up spending her time in lonely corridors of the academy- with no one but herself. She feels, that in the end, that she can only be free of her guilt by herself.
After about fifteen years (she enrolled at the age of 14- youngest ever), keeping to herself and roaming the academy walls with no real human contact (except for Zayne)...then come the arrival of the twins that change the course of her life completely. She is pale, and looks young for her age, so she mingles with them perfectly. Though, I like to see her as an "old soul" inside.
The reason why I love her character so much, is because she learns from a young age, the strength of self preservation rather than falling herself to the guilt of breaking her own promise. I love the fact that she does not measure people by what she hears, but by what they do. She is also a character that believes in the hereafter- because of her ability to confront souls. Constantly questioning about where souls go. Probably a quest to find peace in knowing where her parents went, as souls.
And she acts as a "guide and advice" for the twins. As they always trust her to tell them the best options concerning treaties and trust towards people. Mature and content. She asks for nothing in return.
Though I don't understand her emotions, how can she be so... endearing at life, and accept everything as it is. Accept her fate, different than most girls. What is it that she wants to achieve at the end of her journey? Proof? Recognition? Realization? Love?
Why is she my character?
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